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The war wages on, and I am trying so hard to be positive. The truth is I feel a little beat up mostly because I don't see that I am moving forward, instead I feel like I am in a plateau. I'm struggling with my friendships and I am having a difficult time knowing that this is the plan God has for my life. In Jeremiah 29:11 God promises, "11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." but a little voice inside of me keeps saying 'what good can come out of this'?
I have struggled with depression for a long time and I find comfort in knowing it is common for people with Lyme disease to also have this diagnosis. I really think these thoughts are from Satan who is trying to weigh me down.
I see my specialist this Friday and I am hoping to have a lot of questions answered. I hope to walk out of there optimistic and with a plan.
Above all, I guess I am just asking for prayer. This road is a hard one, but it does not define me. It cannot define me. I'm just struggling to know who I am right now. To my friends, I am sorry to drag you with me or neglect you. Please know that it is not you but an internal struggle I am having. I wish I could ignore it or make it go away, but the war wages on.
I started this blog to show you a piece of my life, and I think this entry is the most raw and confused one I've written. But to you my followers, this is a twist of lyme.